Well, first off, I'd like to say how greatful I am to be living. As in breathing, having a loving family, great friends, and all that awesome stuff that comes in life. I sometimes need to be reminded about these things. I hope I never took a day out of my life for granted. Take chances. Every day is a blessing. Yada, yada. Basically what I'm saying is that if you have people who love you for who you are, that's all you need. And also, accomplish things in life and you like it, you'll look back on it someday and be like "Hey, whatever I did was pretty crazy" or "Hey, whatever I did was stupid, but it was worth it" or something. Ya know? I don't see what the big deal about all of this is. If you don't like what you're doing, change it, I guess. Don't get miserable. Yeah. Life takes unexpected turns. You don't know what will happen tomorrow. I'm just feeling down now, if you haven't noticed already. Life once again has taken an unexpected turn on me. I am a lost soul for now. Don't ask. If you do, you will suffer in a hellish doom. Why? Because I said so.

Anyways, I'm here to post about what I am supposed to be posting about. Hah.

2005. The year of madness, drama, and the most craziest shit I've ever done in my life so far. I don't think I can list them all because some I don't remember. I looked back in this entire year and had questioned myself. Was I really there? Did I really do that? Did I really make that many friends? Was I really fucked up? Can anything top this year than next year or the year after? We'll see.

1. Early Jan.- Trip to St. Louis, MS...Went with my brother and my aunt and cousins to visit my uncle there. It snowed.
2. Mid April- Jacon in Orlando...Geez. Do I have to explain this again? Okay. Sum it up: Beer, anime, clubbing, Halo 2 tournament, and other shit that you couldn't ever imagine fitting in in an entire fucking weekend.
3. May- Graduation...Exciting shit!
4. Juneish- The Rapids with Ali and KT...Got totally sunburned.
5. July 29- My 18th b-day party...In only 10 words or less: It was a really fucked up party. No alcohol either.
6. August- Start of college at FSU...PWNAGEEEEE!
7. The parties in college are the fucking best. Beer. Beer. Mixed drinks. Beer. Yagerbombs. Beer. Shots. More beer. Fuck yeah. Made a shitload of Tally friends.
8. The war in Iraq needs to stop because Bush doesn't care about black people and he doesn't know how to open Chinese doors in China.
9. Hurricanes blow, not suck. Tornadoes suck.
10. The death of Rosa Parks. Without her help, there wouldn't be nukkas here.
11. Release of the Xbox 360. Looks hawt, but who would spend over $1,000 on Ebay on one because the retail stores were sold out? You should've pre-ordered it. PWNED FACE.
12. Oh, I forgot...BEGINNING AUGUST- Vans Warped Tour 2005 was off da hook.
13. This year was honestly the year of the Halo 2. You just didn't know it.
14. Save the local music scene. Hell yeah.
15. Chinese class was hard, how come I got an A-?!?! OMGWTFBBQ!!!!
16. I noticed how many people don't know how to shut the fuck up anymore. Just. Shut. The. Fuck. Up.

2006 will be another memorable year. Thank you for reading as this will be forever implanted in your little noggins (maybe!). Thanks for a great year, guys. This entry will be that last time I will be posting in here for the rest of what's left of this awesome year. Don't forget to smile. It makes a good first impression. r0xx0rz the new year, bitches.

Love always and God Bless, [and don't forget that you will always bow down to me, bwahaha]
Michelle aka Mishi :)

P.S.- Friends only journal starting in January.

4 more days.

Wow, I don't know how to put last weekend in words. Okay then...I'll do this in a systematic way.

Friday- Uh, I don't think I did anything...and if I did then I forgot. I'm usually good with remembering what I did on the weekends...even Friday. Oh wait...I remember I wanted to go to Terry's party, but if David went then I would've went, but instead he went to smoke some Shisha with a couple of friends. And he saw Aeon Flux. So jealous. I'm gonna make him go with me if I decide to watch it up here in Tally before I go home. If not then, oh well.

Saturday- One busy day starting at 2pm. This was the most important day of the weekend. I went to pick up Chantel, Jenn, Jess, and Derrika. We went to Walmart and took the longest time ever there. I never spent that long there, ever. After I dropped off Jenn, Jess, and Derrika, Chantel and I were supposed to go to the Tallahassee Mall...but we didn't. All of Monroe St. was friggin' closed. So we went to Governor's Square Mall. It was cool. I bought ANOTHER hoodie. I'm really bad. I gotta stop spending money. No more funds till next semester. After that we went to go smoke some Shisha. The flavor was Exotic Mango. It was okay. I still like Mint Chocolate though. After that, we went back to Chantel's place to watch the rest of the football game...and FSU won!!! VA Tech-22, FSU-27! Too exciting. I also saw Dane Cook on Saturday Night Live on TV. He opened the show and did a couple of hilarious skits. After that I left to go to Jesse's place to party. By this time it was 1am. Oh man I had fun and got buzzed from one huge ass cup of beer. The guys at the party shouldn't have poured so much out of the keg. Oh well, I drank all of the beer in my cup. I gave Jesse a birthday card. He was so wasted by the time I got there. He was so happy to see me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. He opened the card and gave me another kiss! He's so awesome!!! He loved the card. I got a picture with him, finally! I hung out a bit and met a couple of people outta more than 100 people at the party. After a while I was outside in the back with a bunch of people standing by a fire they made. And all of the sudden I see a fight break out so everyone who was in charge of the party said the party was over and the cops were coming. Naturally, I got scared and I tried sobering up for about an hour almost before the fight happened. So after that ordeal I quickly left just incase the cops really did come. I forgot to say goodbye to everyone. I was okay to drive. I got back safely to my place and it was about 3:30am. I didn't pass out/go to sleep until 4:30am.

( Cute? Meh. )

Sunday- Woke up at about 1pm. Did my laundry. At 4:30pm, I went over to Chantel's place and picked her up. I went to CVS to get some pictures developed. We went back to the campus and did our online chinese homework which was totally bullcrap and easy. We were sitting at the Strozier Library on the second floor and my phone goes off. It was Jesse. I was thinkin' "Oh my god....he's calling me!!!" So I picked up the call and ran downstairs and all the way outside. I was gasping for air because I ran so fast. People were lookin' at me funny, but I didn't care. He remembered that he didn't say goodbye to me...or I didn't get to say goodbye to him last night. He asked if the party was good and if I was alright and all that good stuff. That was so sweet of him to remember me and to call me. I forgot to say goodbye to him. I felt bad. But then again, I see him everyday. I sit like right behind him in Chinese class. Anyways, Chantel and I went to Big Daddy's to watch some of my friends perform...their band is called "What" and they're pretty kickass. Chantel never went to any local shows here in Tally, so I took her. She enjoyed it. Oh we also bought a delicious pizza from Gumby's, a local pizzaria. I hung out back at Chantel's place until 1am watching a chinese Majjong movie. Very funny.

Monday (today)- 10am: English was boring like always... 12:20pm: Chinese class was rather enjoying. Before class started, Jesse came in with his breakfast and he was wearing his green Motion City Soundtrack t-shirt... I have a grey one I bought from this year's Warped Tour. That green one was the one I was going to purchase at Hot Topic a while ago. That shirt is so cool. He had this unopened Minute Maid orange juice bottle and was about to open it and it exploded on the floor. I guess he dropped it before he opened it. He said that the cap broke or something. It was crazy and was all over the floor. He ran the the bathroom to get all the paper towels he could. He totally robbed the bathroom of paper towels. He took it all. It still didn't clean the floor all the way. He was joking and said to Chantel that he pissed on the floor. XD Oh man, that was hilarious. Ahhhh. Yep.... 1:15pm: Walking to my math class and its raining and I stepped on more than two puddles on my way to class and almost killed myself trying to walk across the Union. I get to my math class and I'm drenched because I CAN'T FIND MY DAMN UMBRELLA ANYWHERE. I blame myself. :( Driving home after my math class got dismissed early was a bitch. There was no visibility on the roads. Heavy downpours suck. At least I got back safely.



...AND NO, on the contrary...and it may seem funny, but me and Jesse are not hooked up. We're still friends. So stop questioning and wondering. I will explain this in further detail in the next entry.









Offically 7 days left till I go home to Boca! Yay.

This holiday season calls for a brand new layout and cheery Christmas colors!

Check it out! :)

Ho, ho, ho!!

~22 days till Xmas~

Is it me or just that everything in my life is turning into large surprises? Life rules.

Donald is coming to Tally to chill with me for a day or two. For those who don't know who he is, he's my ex-boyfriend, but is my friend still. What a surprise. There's a long story behind him coming to my place in Tally.

If and only if I had someone to share it with.

My Final Xmas Wishlist for 2005

Enjoy. For your curiousity.

Yep. I just came home with my friends that I took to Best Buy. They're sleeping on the sofas as I type. It was chaos at the store, like it always is every year. I came out with a spindle of 75 DVD-Rs/25 CD-Rs, a 120GB hard drive, and a portable DVD player. Soooo sweet...and I get rebates back as well. I saw some familiar faces as I was waiting in line. We waited from 2:30am-5:00am. Yeah. Pretty hardcore. I feel like passing out now and calling myself crazy.

Oh, and I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.

Yeah. I'm going to admit it. I'm a procrastinator for everything and still get good grades. Past, present, future. Yep. I don't know why I'm not sleeping yet. Okay, well, last night rocked. Jesse f-in' rocks my socks. Oh, he's my oral presentation partner in Chinese class as well. I love this kid, he's so goofy and has talent with his voice. Pure pwnage. He better be in the same Chinese class next semester. :( Oh well. Whatever happens, I'll still go to his shows. :) Listening to X-mas music now. Yes.

1 more day till going home for Thanksgiving. ♥ ♥ ♥
Friends, family, food, black Friday, joyful music.

For your information: Eric Gregory Backman hates me. :) MISS YOU MUCH ERIC!!! Can't wait for you to come down winter break!

This is a late post....I haven't been keeping up with this...been VERY BUSY. Anyways, I spent the night with Jenn and the whole smith hall floor 9 gang. We went to go see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. It totally rocked. Long story. This weekend is getting to be great. I realized there is something to do every weekend for me. But yeah, all starting out on Friday night. We saw Harry Potter. I love those Harry Potter movies. Like I almost cried. Yeah. Before the movie started, Madelaine had some Sour Skittles. She gave me some and I ate some and my nose started sweating like it always does when I eat sour stuff. So I tell Madelaine that my nose sweats and I told her to touch it and she was so amused. So was Jenn. And Jess. Jenn bought nachos and they were the cheapest nachos ever. The cheese was even nastier. Piece of crap. That was yesterday. So today me and Jenn went out to the mall today. Tallahassee Mall and Governor's Square Mall. We were on the search for a coat! I bought a Jack Skeleton hoodie and I got 15% off with my filled-out Hot Topic card. Yesss. And I bought coderoy (sp?) pants for $10 at Pacsun which is awesome. Jenn gave me a few jeans that didn't fit her but did fit me. Yes! Since last night, my internet wasn't working and then this morning while I was having my oatmeal, I turned on the TV and there wasn't anything working on that either! So I'm so pissed. I called Comcast and they said they were gonna fix it. We'll see about that. Tonight, I'm going by myself to Big Daddy's across campus tonight and going to watch my friend Jesse's band called Jaded State. It's going to be awesome. I wonder what Sunday might bring me.

3 more days till I get to go home. Thankgiving!!!!! Yes. Black Friday is going to RULLLLEEE! :)

Life just made a lot of sense to me.

You heard me. I do have classes on Tuesday but until 6:30pm...and I'm not sure if my psych class is going to be important. I'll go otherwise. Always damn pop quizzes in there. If I do decide to attend class and leave campus at 6:30pm, I will have this huge debate whether to leave and go home that night or wait and go home Wednesday morning. Wednesday I won't have any classes because they're cancelled...except for Chinese class. I'm going to skip that. I would like to get home as early and as soon as possible. I want to see my friends and of course my lovely family. Fuck the bus, that takes too long. I already bought the ticket a few weeks ago and now I want my $80 back. Going to put that cash where I need it: gas money. One full tank of gas will get me from Tally to Orlando...my friend tried it over this weekend when we went to Orlando with her Honda. It was amazing. So I'm saving $80 and only putting in about $45 for gas one way. I'm driving home which will take me less than 8 hours. I'm going to attempt to make it in 4-6 hours. No more than 6 I hope. Lets hope speeding exceeding 100mph constantly doesn't get me pulled over. Just get me outta here....asap.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore
I just know that I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me
But the key is a question of control

Can you say what you're trying to play anyway
I just pay while you're breaking all the rules
All the signs that I find have been underlined
Devils thrive on the drive that is fueled

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

There's a hole in your soul like an animal
With no conscience, repentance, oh no
Close your eyes, pay the price for your paradise
Devils feed on the seeds of the soul

I can't conceal what I feel, what I know is real
No mistaking the faking, I care
With a prayer in the air I will leave it there
On a note full of hope not despair

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true


...You better go get their new CD..."Playing The Angel"...you're missing out if you don't.

Going to Atlanta in 8 hours.....! YESSSSS!! So happy.

Depeche Mode concert!!!! :) *happpyyyy*

I get my furniture in 10 minutes!!!!!!! Now I get to sit on a comfy sofa and sit and eat on a kickass glass table!

I am the most upset person in the world right now. Too goddamn hard to explain.

...awesome!! Happy 21st again Terry!!!! I got pwned in Halo 2 mang. I think Halo makes the party really complete. Shit, I can't even remember that kid's name from last night that was really kicking ass in Halo. I haven't touched an Xbox or an Xbox controller since I got up to Tally. Christ, I thought God came to save me from my video gaming withdrawals. He loved my skills too. I was pretty good. I had a few drinks, but I wouldn't say I was drunk, my mind feels a little fuzzy now and I can't remember anyone's name that I met last night. Usually I'm really good with names. Aw, screw it. I haven't drank as much as I did last night before. So I felt kinda tipsy for a light drinker. Slurred my words for a little bit, but I was still coordinated...so I had David drive me home. I passed out at like 2am. Arg, last night was pure fun and madness!!! Next Saturday, Sev is having a party. I'm so going if David is lol. Okay, gotta get going so I can go pick up my car.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!!

[I so can't remember her age...]

Friday night was the shit. Like, I spent almost the entire day with Du Da Wei...err...David, hehe. He came over my place to have lunch and then we met up at Best Buy where I HAD to get The Amneityville (sp) Horror. It's for Halloween and I so can't wait to watch it tonight or tomorrow night. I'll get the crap scared outta me. Oh, last night, it was great. Me, David, Lela (David's ex), Ben Samson, Weinguard, Chantel, and Mike went to the civic center to go see the Pow Wow. Its probably the most I've laughed ever since I came up to Tally. Dave Attell and Carlos Mencia were the special guests. By far, Carlos Mencia tops as the best racial comedian I've ever seen or heard. Man, his truthfulness is so damn...true lol. Anyways, After the Pow Wow, I went with David to the Shisha Cafe. Eh, chocolate flavor was okay. I just love Mint Chocolate Chip from the last time. I couldn't smoke much because I laughed so much that my throat felt really nasty. Not good, but I'm better today. I spent 4 hours on building a goddamned computer desk by myself at home. I had this desk in the closet since the semester started and now I got annoyed with it just in there and I decided to build it today. FSU beat Maryland!!!!! Hell yes. It was a great homecoming game. I'm going to this party later tonight with a couple of friends. Gonna get crunk tonight. Mmmmmhmmmmm.

I called home earlier today to my mom's cell phone. GEEZ. I knew it would happen. No service down there. I called like a couple of times and I couldn't get through. The only thing I could call was the mainlines at home and at the restaurant. My mom said that there was a huge ass line forming at the restaurant once she got there to only check if there was any damage. She had to tell them off. There's no power there. Man. I wish I was there to help.

It's cold up here...and its only going to get colder.